How to get yourself into a mid-life crisis at the age of 20.
I think I'm back. I finally started writing. I tried to trace "how the hell did this shit happened oh baby". And unfortunetly it has nothing to do with waking up in the kitchen.
I think it's the longest and the most honest post I've ever published.
I think it's the longest and the most honest post I've ever published.
How to get
yourself into a mid-life crisis at the age of 20.
(A manual
by Mademoiselle Scribbler)
1. Fail in getting a job after
finishing first year of uni.
2. Accept an offer form a morally
challenging club and think of it as a research for a brilliant, career
establishing novel.
3. The first night walk home drunk,
accept invitation for another drink form two guys outside closed pub about 3
am.
4. Invite them up for a threesome, let
one of them stay till the morning and exchange numbers.
5. Get bored at work often enough to
text him.
6. Fail to become a hooker (let the
client, who was supposed to take you home walk out the club without a word).
7. Take a wrong bus home, get lost in
the middle of empty London about 4.30 and text the guy to come and get you.
8. Watch the sunrise with him on his
rooftop and idealize the whole thing between you.
9. Watch a client watching his son
stripping by a pole in the middle of the club and then go fuck the guy.
10. Get invited to a real date.
11. Snort coke all night with a client.
(If he happens to have a both make sure that he runs both taps. Otherwise you’ll
have to go into the bathroom, run the one with cold water as well and watch
that old, bold red-eyed baby. Strongly not recommended)
12. Get back to your place, take a quick
shower, change your clothes go to the date.
13. Drink, eat bagels, fall in love.
14. Find your research difficult and
your boss an asshole.
15. Keep dating the guy.
16. Find your research pointless.
(Notice, you are too nice to use people’s stories in your writing and that what
was supposed to make you even more of a hedonist turns you into Mother Teresa)
17. Think that you’re ready for a real
relationship and quit the job for a guy.
18. Be in love for some time with all
the ups and downs. Then find the sex boring and avoid it.
19. Move out from London to your uni
town half an hour on the train away.
20. Open the door happy to see the guy
and hear that he came just to tell you what a bad person you are. Then have a
drink and fuck together. Let him stay over. Watch movies all morning and see
all the things smoothed by your affection in the full sunlight.
21. Type all your research notes in and
find out it’s not even 20 pages and cannot be classified as a novel nor short
story.
22. Blame the guy about not having
enough material and become passive aggressive towards him. Have a text fight
and shut him up with “our sex got boring”.
23. Decide to visit your parents and
home town. Buy coach tickets, because they are much cheaper than the plane ones
and you’re out of a job once again and obviously broke. Keep it a secret from
everyone but your parents (because they are paying for a ticket) and your ex-boyfriend,
the First. Ask him to pick you up from the station.
24. Make sure it is all done in one day:
decide to come for a shoot with a photographer that is the best fuck you’ve
ever had. Then go see the guy and make a speech about how you’re not able to
see just him, because it’s against your nature. Hear “That’s ok.” From him.
Feel guilty about not being a relationship person and do not ask for his help
with moving the rest of your stuff from pervious room. Carry it all yourself
from the house to the bus, on the train on the bus and home. Twice.
25. Have your pussy eaten in a public
place, sitting on Harley by it’s owner. Get home, have a text fight with the
guy warning you that it’s not seen as a good thing to be an easy girl at uni.
Get informed by him that he is about to screw some other girl. Instead of jealousy
get mad that you’ve given up your research for that childish asshole. Start
packing.
26. Get on a coach packed with other
Polish immigrants and try not to get upset about 18 hour journey you’re about
to experience. Let a stranger tell you her story in the first 3 minutes you
know each other about a cheating boyfriend. Hear her repeating “You can’t forgive
this kind of thing” every 5 minutes. Nod, but have in mind the ex, who’s
picking you up have done the same thing with your best friend. And it took you
2 years to get rid of the hate and when you saw him with a younger and slimmer
girl last holiday, you got so jealous you had to have him back.
27. Have a coffee with your ex kinnda
girlfriend. Realize that you haven’t done anything you can be proud of through
the last year. 3 years actually.
28. Sit in the car excited to see your
ex-boyfriend again, since you still have feelings for him. Hear that you can’t
be seen together, because it would hurt the girl you saw him with last summer.
29. Get home safely. Hug your mom and
eat a soup. See that nothing is changed – they are still this perfect family
and you can’t fit in.
30. Go to a party. Drink vodka. Find out
that your ex’s ex girlfriend (the one after you left) is about to get signed with
a modeling agency. Drink more vodka. Let her remind you something you said when
you still had faith in yourself. Drink more vodka. Pass out.
31. Let the ex of your ex drive you home
in the morning. Let your mom be mad that you haven’t called you’re staying over
somewhere. Find out she called your ex to find out where you are. Jump on a
huge trampoline with your 2,5 year old sister and try not to thing about the
fact that you don’t really remember, when was the last time you talked to him.
9pm? Keep on jumping.
32. Win a theoretical argument about
abortion with the words “Would you like to have me for a mother?” Loose another
with another female friend. Feel like a bad person. Hold yourself back from committing
suicide.
33. Blow up with silly shit to your
mother. Feel like your middle sister is a personification of all the ambition
that your father had for you. Feel like a lost case.
34. Have a perfect good bye with your ex
and miss him already.
35. Get back to London. Get back to your
town feeling even more confused than you were before. To escape watch True
Blood. Episode after an episode. Leave the bed only to get cereal.
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